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hyde parking horror

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I’m officially done with the Hyde Park parking garage. Do not judge me for spending my mortgage in lululemon and then taking the elevator to my car because not only does that stairwell smell like a tuna fish’s unchanged diaper, but this was left on level 2. I will literally rappel off the roof before I walk down those stairs again.


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September 26, 2013 at 12:23 pm


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Roomba always dies beneath a bed.


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September 6, 2013 at 12:54 pm

i’ll take one frosted triple bypass

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20130904-082434.jpgApparently the trainers at Crossfit and the St Petersburg Cardiology Group* formed an alliance to ensure the Copper Monkey and I stop spinning and spending half our week in downward facing dog.

Because after that sign flashes “Hot Now,” what’s the point?

It might not be 13th Street at midnight after we beat the Cinnamon Rolls**, but Vegas odds are high my fat ass will be drawn to that sign like a heat-seeking missile the second it burns red.

In the meantime, I’ve advised Lululemon to station therapists outside their dressing room. Thanks to their ridiculously short-crotched and anorexic-only workout gear, I have learned to make a noose out of a sports bra, and that was before this heart-choking mirage appeared near my daily commute (does it qualify as a “commute” if it involves little more than buying bottled water and tampons from Target?).

For those of you who haven’t yet swerved off the road when you spotted this sign go up (or aren’t on Copper Monkey’s Krispy Kreme phone tree), St. Pete’s one-and-only Krispy Kreme is now strategically located across from the drive-thru Starbucks on 4th Street (known in my Starbucks classification system as the “Russian Mob-ucks”). So, to really speed up the onset of type II diabetes, we can get our PSL (yes, I hate me too) and our glazed coronary artery disease all without turning off Diane Rehm.

Honestly, I cannot think of a better way to abuse my pancreas.

*Please don’t burn a cross on my lawn, Crossfitters. I’m kidding. Plus, there is no St. Petersburg Cardiology Group, so suck it.

**I was having an especially hard time understanding the bagger at Publix yesterday who was talking about my cinnamon rolls as she grabbed my cart from the parking lot. It wasn’t until she pointed to my license plate, and said, “Go Gators!” that I realized she was talking about the Seminoles. And then I felt really bad. For not understanding her. And also for hoping she wasn’t an alumna.


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September 4, 2013 at 1:09 pm

urine samples available now at starbucks if you’re interested

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June 28, 2013 at 2:46 pm

an open letter to the world

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If you ever see someone walking around a store with her giant tag hanging this far out of her romper, it is your civic duty to let her know.


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June 14, 2013 at 1:55 pm

things that could have been brought to my attention yesterday

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After seven years of neglect,
I finally called it quits

My local bank — where I was lured in long ago by a promotional interest rate that dropped to .00000001% the month after I opened my account — just shut down yet another one of its branches.

When it first fled from St Pete to Pinellas Park, I schlepped to the farther away Tampa location instead. Because like most people with a complete set of teeth and mixed feelings about the second amendment, I avoid Pinellas Park.

Over the years, my bank gradually became the inattentive boyfriend whose complacency you overlook because you’re just too lazy to clean your shit out of his garage.

But I wasn’t remaining loyal for convenience, good service or an interest rate that yields more than a nickel a year. It was more the debilitating lethargy that set in the second I considered changing the automatic drafts on my Nordstrom card or cable bill.

Plus with e-statements and e-billing, who the hell even knows which cable company I use? Or what rectum I’m going to have to colonoscopy to get the passwords to change all this billing information anyway?

Needless to say, I was heartbroken when the Tampa location closed leaving me alone with its seedy Pinellas Park uncle leering at my breasts and slurring, “It’s just you and me babe.”

I had to make a change.


Close proximity to Starbucks? Sounds good to me

Fees, hand sanitizer near the pens, interest rates, Dum-dums in the drive-thru.

I had no idea what criteria I’d use to choose a new bank, but knew I’d have to save all that mental energy for figuring out how to answer my own security questions in order to gain access to my progress energy bill (who was my fourth grade teacher? Really? I barely remember the professors I blew in college*).

Ultimately I chose a bank where the president is a friend of a friend, utilizing the same logic that goes into all those Target dollar bin purchases.

“This egg white separator is a good thing to have. I’m sure I’ll use it someday.”

Never mind that I won’t.

So armed with total disdain for any place with fluorescent lighting and the sound of women’s pantyhose rubbing together when they walk to the coffee machine, I set out to open a new account and begin the arduous process of telling the world I finally broke up with my bank after years of neglect.

As I looked around the place where I’d soon be depositing all my welfare checks, I couldn’t help but feel sorry for the “Senior Personal Banker” setting up my account. Dress code dictated she sport an embroidered black golf shirt that looked more Sears Tire Center than FDIC-insured financial institution. And her desk was jutting out of the center of the lobby like an afterthought or timeout chair. With no partitions or so much as a fake plant to separate her from everyone who wanders in off the street, the poor woman would never be able to update her Facebook status.

But I’m assuming if she could, it would be something like, “Would love to close my door so I can burp really loudly, but…oh shit.”

Or, “Phil Mickelson wearing my same shirt today.” chair_timeout

Anyway, once I shook off the feeling that she was really a Senior Personal Camp Counselor (I couldn’t get past the shirt) and after depositing my entire money market savings into my new account, I went home to begin switching over my automatic drafts. With car payments, Target RedCards, et al, tethered to my old account, this exercise had me so cranky and mentally spent, I snapped at my daughter for requesting breakfast. It was 5:30 pm.

Seven days and five meltdowns later (you know the kind that have you asking people around you to “stop breathing so loudly” because you’re trying to think), I logged in to my new online banking site to make sure my money was disappearing at warp speed from the correct account.

I was overdrafted $359.

How is that even possible?

Did my Senior Personal Camp Counselor use all my money to buy herself a cubicle or lifetime supply of twill polo shirts?

Turns out my new bankfriend placed all my money on a 10-DAY hold, despite my deposit being a cashier’s check to myself which would imply next-day availability and without ever thinking this might be useful information to give me while I am sitting across from her.

Wedding Singer theme penetrates dentist office as well

After a recent routine cleaning, my dentist (who has an irksome habit of singing everything he says) serenaded me with a song called, “If you have an extra three grand laying around, come back next week so I can attempt to undo your childhood addiction to Laffy Taffy.”

Me and my bells palsy Novocaine face

Me and my bell’s palsy Novocaine face

I returned a week later to allow my baritone DDS to whittle away at what would be left of my already expensive (just ask my mother) teeth to prepare them for their new crowns (aptly named after the amount of jewelry you’ll have to pawn to pay for them). For $3k, I’d prefer tiaras.

Only after using a dental AK-47 to inject massive amounts of Novocaine directly into my jaw for about 10 minutes straight (humming how it is more effective [at torturing me] if he goes slow), he tells me that he doesn’t recommend the crowns until I have a periodontist perform a gum graft.


I don’t know what the mother bitch that is, but somewhere between spilling a quart of saliva onto my chest because I was too numb to feel it, and suppressing the urge to scrape his eyes out, Adam Sandler’s voice was once again shouting the obvious.

So I left there with the entire right side of my face completely paralyzed despite having nothing done save for the molding of new bleaching trays. Because in the event a periodontist does sew new gums into my mouth, I would like to be able to order my crowns in a shade lighter than mahogany.

Now, totally hating this lounge singer who somehow barbershop quartetted his way through dental school, but on the hook for the bleaching trays, I had to return a few days later to the site of this dentastrophe to pick them up. The assistant jammed the custom molded bleaching tray into my upper arch to check the fit and handed me four measly vials of bleach she just fished out of the drawer. Not exactly the “Professional Whitening Package” you paid hundreds for, but in line with the professionalism of a place where the dentist numbs you to tell you he cannot perform the procedure you’re there for because he forgot to actually look in your mouth the week before.

“Where is the tray for the bottom?” I asked, sensing she was about to leave the room.

She looked at me confused.

“Oh,” she said. “You wanted the bottom too? We didn’t discuss that.”

For a full five minutes of my life that I will never get back we debated the possible merits of only bleaching one half of your mouth.

To summarize: there are none.

But apparently it is my fault for not clarifying that I didn’t only want some of my teeth bleached.

Once again…information that might have been a little more useful to me yesterday.

*Just kidding, Nana! Second base was as far as we got.

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June 11, 2013 at 10:46 pm

shiny buff and other lessons

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photo-5Because my hands and feet are direct descendants of woolly mammoths and the bearded Vikings who discovered America (my Pop just fist bumped me from the grave), I’m forced to participate in bimonthly mani-pedis to avoid archaeologists suspending me from the ceiling of the Natural History Museum.

If it comes down to fleecing my daughter’s 529 to finance my grooming or going without, the choice is quite clear. You’re welcome.

Luxecares a lot about your fi dulla

So after an equally necessary caffeine infusion yesterday morning, I headed to the new nail salon Luxecares on 4th Street next to Einsteins and the hollowed out corpse of Blockbuster.

Increasingly frustrated with being told to “wait fi minute, pick culla” I have less and less patience for the fi minute queue that’s really twenty-fi, or the waterboarding of worthless add-ons that catapult my $12 mani into something I will have to whip out my Visa for despite the handwritten signs everywhere begging me not to (apparently the tangerines and plastic flower offerings for Buddha are the only taxes many salon owners want to pay — no judgment).

Luxecares was still so new it smelled of fresh paint, and one of the employees was wiping down the headrests with disinfectant. So, yes, it immediately became my favorite nail salon in St. Pete. I even was able to overlook the fact that their manicures ranged from “The Express” at $15 all the way up to a $35 manicure that I’m guessing was the “If you’re dumb enough to pay this” special.

I sat down with my nail tech Fonda who is most likely married to McLovin and explained that I needed extensive cuticle work, but don’t use nail polish since it just makes me look like a tranny. I can say things like that without consequence to ESL people. That’s probably why I am so attracted to foreign men.

Looking around the empty salon it was obvious Luxecares was trying to offer an upgraded spa-like experience with their empty, but sealed bottles of Moet & Chandon displayed everywhere and real orchids in vases in lieu of spray-painted carnations or the dusty silk flowers at Hong Kong nails in Tampa (only go there if you like the smell of microwaved Cha Cá Thang Long wafting in from the back room and don’t mind nail techs with cataracts so thick, you just simply pay and leave five minutes into your pedicure because it feels somewhat abusive to have a blind grandmother pressing her face against your big toe trying not to file your ankles).

As Fonda made sashimi out of my cuticles, I was forced to either consider how they resealed the rows of bottles after drinking the champagne (and why wasn’t I taught this technique in high school?) or look at time-lapsed videos of daffodils blooming in a sunny country meadow on the flatscreen TV. The blooming flowers had a tranquil LSD-like effect until the lovely nature scene cut to lions ravenously feeding off the intestines of an elephant.

Sit back, relax. Enjoy the show.

Sit back, relax. Enjoy the show.

I looked around. Um, is anybody seeing this? My acid trip just turned ugly.

And so did Fonda.

Because although I made it abundantly clear in the beginning of our express 15-minute mani that I did not want shiny buff, somewhere between a coyote snatching a groundhog out of its hole with its mouth and a shark stalking baby seals, there she was hovering the buffer over my nails like a threat.

“I do shiny buff instead of polish. Fi dulla extra. I do for you!”

For those who do not know, shiny buff is the nemesis of every nail salon client. Because while there is nothing wrong with a shiny, natural, unpolished nail, there is something immoral about every nail tech on earth colluding to extort 40% of the cost of a manicure on buffing your nails when you are actually foregoing four coats of nail polish and a good five minutes for them to do so. Shiny buff uses little to no resources as there is no base coat, polish, second coat of polish and top coat, yet they want $5 more for it? I’m so baffled by this rationale I actually get angry when they try to sell me on it.

“No means no!” I thought, feeling suddenly betrayed by Fonda.

And I was just starting to like her too, because save for the mandatory “You work today?” (they must learn this at cosmetology school) she politely left me alone to vacantly stare at those champagne bottles.

I wink at Buddha on my out as I fork over a $20 bill for my $15 express and a generous tip since it seems silly to ask for a dollar or two back. The owner asks me if I’m going to leave a gratuity. I look down at the $20 and tell him to keep it.

“Yeah, but $15 for manicure, $5 extra for shiny buff.”

No. No. No.

So insistent they were on shiny buff, they were going to charge me for it anywhere, putting them dangerously close to making it on my terror watch list.

But overall Fonda did a good job grooming my ham hocks and the bathroom mirror there made me look skinny, so I’ll forgive Luxecares their high pressure sales techniques or total cluelessness about appropriate relaxation DVDs. Besides, bloody elephant carcasses are preferable to the endless loop of Yanni concerts Poshe plays anyway.

Venus makes the no-fly list

Several weeks ago in a bit of a time pinch, I dropped into Venus nail salon next to Gigi’s for a mani to primarily clean up my dried and cracked cuticles that seem to grow over my nails at the speed of a menopausal woman’s chin hairs. Amazing to me how much time and effort I dedicate to removing skin and hair from my body. See above: woolly mammoth.

I knew within minutes my nail tech was too apathetic to trim my cuticles properly and instead was only making sideways cuts in them in an effort to render them even less presentable. I told her several times she needed to remove more cuticle, not just make origami pigeons out of the ones I have.

“I take off more, I cut you!”

Usually when I tell someone I’m going to cut them, I’m pretty fucking mad.

So I decided to chalk this up as a shitty manicure and sulk instead of complain.

After zig-zag slicing and forgetting to file, it was time for the massage.

Here’s a tip: it’s actually beneficial to piss off your nail tech because you get a really deep tissue massage as a result. Although in fairness, I’m pretty sure she was trying to dislocate my wrists but didn’t realize my Norwegian bone structure made ballet, skinny jeans and this an impossibility.

When she finished giving me an Indian Arm Burn, I noticed whole pieces of cuticles dangling off my nail beds and asked that she please at least remove them or let me borrow her clippers so that I could just do it myself. Equipped with her medieval torture device and a really evil glare, she violently grabbed my hand. Within seconds, a searing pain sliced through my ring finger, affirmed by a burst of bright red blood that wasn’t coagulating thanks to excessive caffeine use or some sort of incurable blood disease.

To make this gruesome scene worse, she continued to cut me three more times! Not since I sat next to an airline passenger who ate his lamb curry right after removing his boots for the first time in what I can only imagine was his entire adult life have I experienced such torture.

I finally mustered my shiny buff strength (“No means No!”) and told her that I’ve had enough.

I left to pay with a paper towel (that I had to get myself since her goal was to make me bleed out) wrapped around my bloody finger.

“Everything okay?” the manager asked.

I held up my filleted open fingers, incredulous.

“Okay, $12.” she said, not at all apologetic.

And then by some strange result of Stockholm Syndrome or something, I threw $15 at her. I tipped $3 for mutilating me? Who does that? I didn’t know who to hate more. Venus finger slicer or myself.

Venus is now officially on my no-fly list, which is another reason I celebrated the opening of Luxecares this week despite its awkward compound word name and shark feeding DVDs.

In fact, when I left Luxecares I asked Brian if he wanted me to make an appointment for us to get pedicures. He likes to go with me presumably so they don’t think he’s gay.

“I would, but I already got one yesterday at that place next to GiGis.”

“What?” I gasped. “How could you do that? How could your cross the picket line? Venus is on my no-fly list for turning me into Edward Scissorhands.”

Solidarity, man.

There are many lessons in life that I will teach my daughter.

The most important, of course, is opening doors with her elbows.

But in the not-so-distant future, I will teach her that “No means No!”

And if she doesn’t want to get cut?

Best not cross mommy’s picket line.

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June 8, 2013 at 1:54 pm

the 9th may 8th; an evolving epitaph

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H. Eric Siversen
November 4, 1944 to May 8, 2004

“If death meant just leaving the stage long enough to change costume and come back as a new character, would you slow down? Or speed up?” – Chuck Palahniuk

It’s been nine years since I last saw my father in this world.

He’s only visited me twice in my dreams.

When I discovered on my wedding day that my dress was about five inches too long, I looked into his eyes, blue like mine but unstained by streaks of urine yellow.

“Daddy, what if I trip down the aisle?”

His face softened with the satisfaction of knowing the right answers to one of life’s pop quizzes that’s weighted much more heavily than the rest.

“Then I’ll catch you,” he said. “I always have.”

And he knew.

My fear was less about the “trip ” than it was about the journey itself.


Some days I find myself stamping down an almost irrepressible urge to travel far and wide and Houdini out of my life much like my toddler used to in her much-loathed carseat, kicking and screaming and twisting to be free.

This yearning promises wonder, beauty and enlightenment in the Northern Lights of the Norwegian skies or the streets of Provence should I just decide to keep driving past that second star to the right, straight on till morning.

The song that Dj’s these moments is “Hanginaround” by the Counting Crows. It’s part of the soundtrack of my 25-year-old self speeding along the Pacific Coast Highway on my way to San Francisco where a life waited for me should I choose door number three.IMG_6499

I didn’t.

I still can’t help but wonder though what was behind that door, remembering how the setting sun spun gold highlights into my hair for free. And always in that memory the same uninspired song drones on in an endless loop.

“…well I’m stuck so tight weighed by the chains that keep me.”

The temptation of knowing the world wants to kiss me long and hard on the lips isn’t new. It bubbles up from deep inside, daring me to drive really fast and really far away, melting into the horizon just like my father used to on his motorcycle or in his boat.


And although I might not understand things like religion, mustaches or boyfriend jeans, I now realize that what my dad craved the most wasn’t the speed, but rather the thrill of the moment, however fleeting, during which he pretended that he wasn’t coming back.

He always did.

And alas that magnificent push/pull of life sends me back as well. To a school parking lot where a snack and dance leotard wait in the backseat for a second grader with crooked braids and a full accounting of the boys who burped at lunch.

As she skips to the car, I’m still hungover from that familiar wave of intoxicating wanderlust that only seconds earlier helped to remind me that my wistful, passionate father never really left.

Because he is that pilot light within me.

And in that truth I find my peace.



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May 8, 2013 at 12:32 am

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what do you mean ‘why are you at walmart’?

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Where the hell else am I going to get these fine products?

And for all you Evangelicals who surely subscribe to this blog…a bathroom garbage pail? Even He is disappointed.



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April 25, 2013 at 4:23 pm

only at walmart

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Do you need to be reminded not to forget your kids in the car.


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